My Life Lately

Sorry for such a long delay in posting.  I have a couple of half-way finished entries reflecting on several single instances, but I will try and sum up what has been going on in this one.

Living in Accra has been so great.  I really love Ho.  It’s a great town, but not much really happened.  If I wasn’t working, I was either reading, watching a movie, or going to sit at a “spot” and drink with friends.  Fun, but not very healthy.  Here in Accra, I live a life a little more similar to what I would be doing in the US and hopefully that will make for an easier transition.  During the week, I go to the gym, go grocery shopping, use internet at the mall, cook dinner, just my normal routine.

I have also been leading a training of trainers social work course at the Budaburdam Refugee Camp.  I spend about 5 hours roundtrip commuting, but it is well worth it.  I have about 8 adults in my class, and we are covering topics like basic values and ethics of social workers, program planning, planning tools, program evaluation and administration.  This has helped me realize how much I really enjoy teaching.  I am not sure how much impact learning these skills will really have on the students.  At the end of each class someone will walk me to the road and makes sure I get a car.  I was asking questions the other day when we were walking about what they would be doing if they were not coming to the class.  My friend replied that they would be sitting around doing nothing.  So, maybe the class at least gives something for people to do.

The story of the people on the camp is not very hopeful.  They are caught in limbo, not wanting to go back to Liberia because there are fewer opportunities there then here in Ghana.  However, the Ghana government doesn’t really want them either and the UNHCR wants them to repatriate back to Liberia because it is now “safe”.  It is very difficult for people on the camp to get work permits in Ghana and hard to get scholarships to go to University.  When asking about what people do for money, someone in my class said that he thinks more than half of the people on camp rely on outside family and friends to send money back to them to survive.  About two years ago, there was a peaceful demonstration at the camp where women had a “sit in” protesting the lack of opportunities to work.  It ended with the Ghana police coming in, being violent, and eventually deporting some of the participants.  What do you do when no one will stand up for you and you can’t stand up for yourself?  This is not a very empowering state to live.

However, the people in my class are truly wonderful and really do care about human rights, learning, and doing something with their lives.  I try to focus on this and do what I can while I am here.  I made copies of some of my social work books for everyone in class, and they really appreciated it.  I think once I get home I will work on trying to find more text books for them.

On a lighter note, I have also been keeping busy on the weekend volunteering with the organization I originally posted about ADMD.  We are planning a community drama, which I recruited my friend Vivian to direct.  She just graduated from the University of Ghana with a BFA in Theater for Community Development and has been so incredibly helpful (I posted photos from her grad on Facebook).  The drama is going to be acted out by people in the community and will discuss the dangers of illegally migrating. I’ll try and post pictures from the event once it happens.

All in all things are going really well.  I only have six weeks until I leave, which doesn’t seem like long enough (my bank account begs to differ though).  Next weekend I am going hang gliding along with I don’t know how many Peace Corps people.  Hopefully, I will be able to fit everything in before I leave but it will still be bittersweet.  While there are many things I will miss about Ghana, I try not to dwell on those…here are a few things I can’t WAIT to come home to:

  1. Sushi
  2. Haircut
  3. Thai food
  4. Korean food
  5. Take out in general
  6. Air conditioning
  7. Clothes that fit and I haven’t been wearing for a year
  8. Not constantly sweating

Tarzan is an Expatriate

The following is an article written in 1967 and featured in Sunrise with Seamonsters, a collection of pieces written by the travel writer/journalist/novelist, Paul Theroux.  Even though it was written in a different time for East Africa, I still feel like there are truths here that have never really changed.

Consider the following quotation, from The Man-Eaters of Tsavo by Lt. Col. J.H. Patterson, D.S.O.

“…Shortly I saw scores of lights twinkling through the bushes; every man in camp turned out, and with tom-toms beating and horns blowing came running to the scene.  They surrounded my eyrie, and to my amazement prostrated themselves on the ground before me, saluting me with cries of ‘Mabarak! Mabarak!’ which I believe means ‘blessed one’ or ‘Saviour’…We all returned in triumph to the camp, where great rejoicings were kept up for the remainder of the night, the Swahili and other African natives celebrating the occasion by an especially wild and savage dance.  For my part I anxiously awaited the dawn…”

There is a human shape that stands astride this description and a thousand others like it.  It is the shape of Tarzan, prime symbol of Africa.

My knowledge of Tarzan is that of a person who, fifteen years ago, spent Sunday afternoons on the living room floor on his elbows reading that serious comic inspired by Edgar Rice Burroughs’ novels.  Tarzan may be gone from the comics; I have no way of knowing.  But I do know that he is here, in Africa, in the flesh.  I see him every day.

The Tarzan I remember was a strong white man in leather loincloth, always barefoot; and he was handsome, a wise mesomorph, powerful, gentle and humorless.  The animals all knew him.  He spoke to them cryptically, in a sort of private Kitchen Swahili (two of the words he frequently used were bundolo and tarmangani).  The animals replied in bubbles which only Tarzan understood.  Although he was known as Tarzan, “The Ape-Man,” he was undeniably a man and bore not the slightest trace of simian genes.

There was Jane.  She aroused me: her enormous breasts strained the makeshift knots on her monkeyskin brassiere; she was also barefoot, an added nakedness that in the case of a woman is certainly erotic, and she walked on the balls of her feet.  She was watchful, worried that Tarzan might be in danger.  When she sniffed trouble she had a sexy habit of thrusting out those breasts of hers, cocking her head to the side and cupping her hand to her ear.  Boy, the odd epicene child, appeared on the living room floor one week and stayed, as pubescent as the day I first laid eyes on him: slender, hairless little boy scout with his child-sized spear.

And my Tarzan, real of the result of a dim recollection dimmed even further by my being remote in time and place, defined his society and implied its close limits when he said, pointing, “Me Tarzan…You Jane…Him Boy…”

In spite of the fact that there was a green parrot with his claws dug into Tarzan’s shoulder, a monkey holding his hand and a loin faithfully dogging his tracks, Tarzan did not admit these creatures to his definition.  In the most politic way, by not mentioning them, he excluded the animals from the society of the intimate white three.  There was no question of equality: the fact remained that the animals simply were not the same and could therefore never have the same rights as the humans. Tarzan did not aggravate the situation; he asserted his authority over the animals very passively.  When there was trouble the animals rallied round, they served Tarzan, grunted their bubble-messages and assisted him.  Except in a time of jungle crisis Tarzan had little or nothing to do with them.  Distance was understood.  Tarzan never became bestial; he ate cooked food and, to my knowledge, never bit or clawed any of his enemies or buggered his functionaries.  Yes, of course he swung on vines, beat his chest and roared convincingly, but these gestures were not an expression of innate animalism as much as they were the signal of a certain solidarity with the animals; as gestures they demonstrated futility as well as sympathy, and it was this sympathy that made them seem genuine.  But, still, even the skillful prose which the gestures ultimately comprised was not a pose which anyone could bring off.  Only Tarzan could beat his chest and win respect.  Others would be laughed at.

Having defined his society (a small superior group; white, human, strong) Tarzan still recognized that he was in the jungle.  His definition therefore was an assertion of exclusiveness which, coupled with the fact that he did not want to leave the jungle, seemed to indicated that he wanted to be a king; or, if ‘king’ is objectionable, then he wanted to be special, lordly, powerful.  We have established the fact that he was not an “apeman” and we know that he was above the lion and the elephant, both of which are known as King of the Jungle, according to who has faced them (the lion-hunters plump for the lion, the elephant-hunters for the elephant).  Above all, he had conquered the animals with an attitude, an air; no force was involved in the conquering and so it was the easiest and most lasting victory. This gave rise to Tarzan’s master-servant relationship (the slave does not know his master, the servant does; the servant is overpowered by an attitude, the slave by a whip).

Tarzan was contemptuous of all outsiders, especially those who were either hunters or technicians.  When the old scientist and his daughter lose their way in the bush and are confronted by Tarzan, it turns out that Tarzan is wiser than the scientist and Jane has bigger breasts than the daughter; if there is a boy involved, he is a simpleton compared with Boy.  The animals feared the botanist in the cork helmet, the anthropologist in the Landrover; Tarzan had either hatred or contempt for them.  But though he hated these people who had a special knowledge of the jungle fauna and flora, Tarzan was still interested, in a highly disorganized way, the jungle: each root, tree, animal and flower, the composition of soil, the yank of quicksand, the current of rivers.  He had conquered by knowing and he was knowledgeable because he lived in the jungle.  There was very little brainwork in this.  It was a kind of savage osmosis: he took the knowledge through his skin and he was able to absorb this wisdom because he was in Africa.  All that was necessary in this learning-experience was his physical presence.

He did not harm the animals; this was enough.  He knew everything any animal knew; he lived among the animals but not with them. The animals traipsed after him and sometimes he followed them; still the relationship was a master-servant one, with an important distance implied (no one, for example, ever suspected Tarzan of bestiality).  He did not kill as outsiders did; at most he wounded or crippled, though usually he sprang an ingenious trap, embarrassing the enemy with helplessness instead of allowing him the dignity of a violent jungle death.  He led a good vegetarian life, a life made better because he had no ambition except to prevent the interruption of his passive rule.  He was indolent, but still there was nothing in the jungle Tarzan could not do.

The phrase in the jungle is important.  Take Tarzan out of the jungle and he would be powerless.  His element was the jungle and yet he was not of the jungle.  He was clearly an outsider, obviously a man; much more than Robinson Crusoe who was inventive, impatient and self-conscious, Tarzan was the first expatriate.

We should not wonder why Tarzan came to the jungle.  The reasons Tarzan had could be the same as those of any white expatriate in Africa.  There are five main reasons: an active curiosity in things strange; a vague premonition that Africa rewards her visitors; a disgust with the anonymity of the industrial setting; a wish to be special; and an unconscious desire to stop thinking and let the body take over.  All of these reasons are selfish in a degree. Mixed with them may be the desire together with the knowledge that the good deeds will be performed in a pleasant climate. This, in the end, is not so much a reason for coming as it is an excuse.  The wish to be special (and rewarded) is dominant; the need for assertion—the passive assertion, the assertion of color—by a man’s mere physical presence eventually dominates the life of the expatriate.  Tarzan must stand out; he is non-violent but his muscles show.

Curiosity is the first to go.  It may draw a person away from home but in Africa it diminishes and finally dies.  When the expatriate feels he knows the country in which he is working he loses interest. There is a simple level at which the expatriate learns quickly and easily about his surroundings (and no one is more in his surroundings than the expatriate; the lack of privacy is almost total, but privacy is something upon which very few in Africa place a high value).  He learns the settler anecdotes and racial jokes, the useful commands for servants, the endless dialect stories about the habits of Africans and the rules of conduct which are expected of him as a white man in a black country.  All of this information is slanted toward white superiority, the African as animal and, again, the kind of assertion that is based on color.  A sample Kenyan story concerns a white man who sees an African walking a dog.  “Where are you going with that baboon?” the white man asks.  “This isn’t a baboon, it’s a dog,” says the African.  “I’m not talking to you!” the white man snaps.  There are the expatriate truisms: never give an African anything; Africans really don’t want anything; if you run over an African on the road you must drive away as fast as you can or you’ll be killed by the murderous mob that gathers (this is not refuted even by the staunchest liberals); Africans smell, have rhythm, don’t wash, are terribly happy and so forth. There are the vernacular commands, all of which can be learned in a matter of a few days: “Cut the wood,” “Dry the dishes,” “Mop the floor,” “Get bwana’s slippers,” “Don’t be sulky to Memsahib.”  The rules of conduct for whites are aimed at keeping up expatriate morale: offer a lift to whites you see walking in the road; never be a loner or exclude other whites from your society, especially in up-country places; feel free to drop in on fellow expatriates—expect them to drop in on you; when traveling, get the names of all the whites on your route; develop an anti-Indian prejudice; fornication, conversation and general truck with Africans must be covert and kept to a minimum—sleeping with tribeswomen is bad for the morale of expatriate wives.  The jokes, the racial stereotypes, the vernacular commands, the rules of conduct—all of these tell the expatriate that he is different, he is superior, he is Tarzan. This information is sought by the recently arrived expatriate; his confidence is built on such information.  When he knows enough so that he won’t blunder unknowingly into liberalism and so that he is able to dominate everyone except those in his rigidly defined society, he stops seeking.

He wants to do more than merely stay alive; he does want to be special, visible, one of the few.  But this is the easiest thing of all, and so surprising in its ease that the result is a definite feeling of racial superiority.  His color alone makes him distinct.  He does not have to lift a finger. The great moment in the life of every expatriate comes when he perceives that, for the first time in his life, people are watching him; he is not anonymous in a crowd, in a line, in a theater or a bar.  With the absence of strict segregation he is even more distinct: he is among but not with, drinking in a bar where there are many Africans he will stand out.  His color sets him apart and those he is among nearly always respect him and keep their distance: the Indian shopkeeper rubs his hands and scurries around trying to please him; the African carries his shopping for twenty cents, singles him out in a crowd and offers to wash his car while the expatriate watches a film, takes his place for a penny in the stamp line at the post office and a hundred other things.

The realization that he is white in a black country, respected for it, is the turning point in the expatriate’s career.  He can either forget it or capitalize on it.  Most choose the latter.  It is not only the simplest path, it is the one that panders most to his vanity and material well-being.  He may even decide to fortify his uniqueness by carefully choosing affectations: odd clothes, a walking stick, a lisp, a different accent; he may develop a penchant for shouting at his servants, losing his temper or drinking a quart of whiskey a day; he may take to avocados, afternoon siestas or small boys.  When the expatriate goes too far with his affectations, his fellow expatriates say he is a victim of “bush fever”.  But they know better.  What the expatriate is doing is preparing his escape, not out of the jungle, but escape to retirement—that long sleep until death comes to kill—within the jungle.  Having proven his uniqueness by drawing attention to his color, by hinting through his presence that he is different, by suggesting through a subtle actionless language that he is a racist, and perhaps demonstrating one or two feats of physical or intellectual strength, he retires to a quiet part of the jungle and rests.  He is fairly sure that no one will bother him and that he will be comfortable.

Reward is certainty. I speak about East and Central Africa.  There are very few expatriates in these parts of Africa who do not make more money here than they would make at home.  The standard of expatriate living is always very high: here the watchful parrot is a Nubian night watchman for the house, and the rest of Tarzan’s useful animal servants have their equally talented counterparts in the cook, houseboy, steward, driver, gardener, and so forth.  There is a functionary at every turn: carpenters, tailors, garage mechanics, baby-sitters and carwashers—each of whom will work for a song.  They have been trained by other Tarzans; there are always more candidates to be trained who are jobless, poor with large families and small gardens and not the slightest notion of either comfort or salary.  It is easy to train them, to keep them employed and, especially, to dominate them.  If they work poorly they can be fired on the spot.  It is unlikely that the Labour Office will get after the former employer and interceded on the fired man’s behalf.  If the Labour Office did care to make an issue of it, it would probably lose.  In the parts of Africa I have lived whites do not lose arguments.

There are further rewards, equally as tempting for Tarzan as the servants and functionaries.  There are baggage allowances, expatriation allowances, subsidized housing, squash courts, golf courses, swimming pools and mostly white clubs.  The sun shines every day of the year on the flowers.  There are holidays: a car trip to Mombasa, climbing and camping in the snow-covered Mountains of the Moon with a score of bearers, a visit to the volcanoes of Rwanda or the brothels of Nairobi, a sail in a dhow, a golfing vacation in the Northern Region.  One day’s drive from where I write this can take me to pygmies, elephants, naked Karamonjong warriors (who, for a shilling, will let themselves be photographed glowering into the lens), leopards, the Nile River, a hydroelectric dam, Emin Pasha’s fort, palatial resorts, Murchison Falls or the Congo.

The expatriate has all of these rewards together with a distinct conviction that no one will bother him; he will be helped by the Africans and overrated by his friends who stayed in England or the United States. He is Tarzan, the King of the Jungle.  He will come to expect a degree of adulation as a matter of course.  He is no longer hurrying down a filthy subway escalator, strewn with ads for girdles, to a crowded train in which he will be breathed upon by dozens of sweating over-dressed people; he is no longer stumbling up another escalator to his home where his children are croaking and shrieking on the floor.  Tarzan had his vine, the expatriate has his car and, very likely, his driver.  The idea of using public transportation does not occur to the expatriate: it exists for the public, not him.  Africans will wave to him as he drives by in his car; some, in up-country places, will fall to their knees as he passes.  He will have few enemies, but even if he had many, none would matter.  Everyone else is on his side.  He is Tarzan.

There is the death of the mind.  The expatriate does not have to think; he has long since decided that nothing should change, the jungle should not alter.  In Africa he is superior and should remain so.  Most agree with him; all the people he works with agree with him; Africans with money and position are the most convinced of all that change means upsetting the nature of society.

These Africans have come around to the expatriate point of view; they have been conquered with an attitude and a little money; they settle tribal disputes by saying to the tribesmen, “Let’s be English about this” and ask the expatriate’s indulgence in not being critical of the brutal and bloody suppression of a tribe or opposition party or minority group.  “These are difficult transitional years for our developing country,” is the excuse for these purges.

The expatriate does not enter any fray; he takes Tarzan’s view: it is wrong—because it is unnatural—to try and settle jungle quarrels.  It proves nothing.  The animals may chatter and squabble, but this is of no concern to Tarzan; this is nature at her purest and should not be interfered with.

The mind dies and Tarzan discovers flesh.  The suspicion about Africa the expatriate had in a cold English or American suburb is confirmed in a Mombasa bar or a Lagos nightclub when three or four slim black girls begin fighting over him.  They also fight for the fat bald man sitting in the corner, for the Italian merchant marine jigging in the center of the floor, with his pants down, for the Yugoslavian ape-man who has just stumbled in and is now tearing the pinball machine apart.  The expatriate has gone away from home to give his flesh freedom.  He never guessed how simple the whole process was.  That makes it all the simpler is that there is no blame attached.  Even if there were blame or reprisals, only the embassy would suffer.  The expatriate is soon ardently; dealing in skin and this, with the death of the mind and the conscious assertion of color, is the beginning of the true Tarzan Complex.  The expatriate has been served, waited on, pandered to, pimped for and overpaid; he has fed the image of his uniqueness and his arrogance has reached its full vigor.

There is a plain truth that must be stated as well.  This Tarzan, like the Tarzan of the comics, is not an objectionable man.  He is not Mr. Kurtz, “Mad” Mike Hoare or Cecil Rhodes.  There is very little that can be called sinister about him.  There was little duplicity in his reasons for coming to Africa, but overthrowing the government by force is the furthest thing from his mind.  What is most striking about him is his ordinariness: he is a very ordinary white person in an extraordinary setting. He is a white man starting to wilt, sweating profusely, among millions of black men, frangipanis, wild animals and bush foliage.

The liberal has it both ways. He enjoys all the privileges of Tarzan and still is able to say that he is a nationalist.  He is the reversible Tarzan.  His speech is entirely at odds with his actions: he bullies his servants in one breath and advocates class struggle in the next. When there is trouble he becomes Tarzan, with all of Tarzan’s characteristic passivity.  He does not fight, and yet the schizoid nature of his existence drives him occasionally to apologize for a brutal black regime.  The archetypal Tarzan never apologizes; he accepts the behavior of the animals insofar as it does not bother him, Jane or Boy.  The liberal Tarzan denies that there are differences in the jungle and insists that his color means nothing.  But his life is much the same as the Tarzan expatriate, and his motives for coming to Africa are likewise the same.  He is the most fortunate liberal on earth.  He makes a virtue of keeping silent while the jungle is spattered with gunfire.  He knows he will lose his job and have to go home if he criticizes the ruling party.  Although he may say he is concerned with freedom, he knows that certain topics are taboo: in Kenya he cannot defend the Asians when they are under attack; in Tanzania, Malawi and a dozen other countries he cannot be critical of the one-party form of government; in Uganda he cannot mention that, one year ago, there was a forcible and bloody suppression of the largest tribe in the country.  He believes that he has won over the Africans by saying the right things and praising the injustices.  But the African attitude toward him, because it is based on color, is no different toward the average non-political expatriate.

The liberal’s paradise seems to be a place where he can hold leftist opinions in a lovely climate.  Sub-Saharan Africa is one of these paradises: the old order does not alter, the revolutions change nothing and still to be white is to be right; being British is an added bonus.  The liberal quacking may continue, and the liberal may pretend that he is not Tarzan, but he is Tarzan as much as any tightlipped civil servant admiring his jacarandas.  The Tory Tarzan keeps silent; the liberal Tarzan says “Hear, hear” when the preventive detention legislation is passed.

A person should not agree to work in a country that demands silence of him.  This rids the person of any human obligations and helps him to become Tarzan, the strong white man who has what he wants at the expense of millions of people who serve him in one way or another; he has everything, those around him have nothing. The very fact that silence is a condition of getting the job should indicate, especially to the academics, that the government is not ready for him.  With this release from any feelings of sympathy or any real obligations toward the people he is among, the expatriate has a lot of free time to think, but no set standard for reflection except the excesses of past Tarzans.  In this climate, with no sensible limits on thought, fascism is easy.  This is the extreme no one expected before he came.  The simple selfishness that was a part of all his reasons for coming to Africa had nothing to do with fascism, but within the slowly decaying condition of mind that is realized after years of sun and crowds, disorder and idleness, is a definite racial bias. It is not a scientific thing; rather, it is the result of being away, being idle among those he does not know.  His voice gets shrill, bad temper increases.  An extended time in this unnatural pose can make him hateful; a black face laughing in the heat or screaming, a knot of black people merely standing muttering on the street corner can make him a killer.

The sun should make no one a fascist, but it is more than the sun.  It is a whole changed way of looking and feeling: “I now understand apartheid,” says the Israeli hotel-owner who has spent two years in Nigeria; “Frankly, I like the stupid Africans best,” says the white army officer in Malawi; “I wouldn’t give you a shilling for the whole lot of them,” says the businessman in Kenya; “Oh, I know they’re frightfully inefficient and hopeless at politics—but, you know, they’re terribly sweet,” says the liberal English lady.  If I stay here much longer I will begin to talk like this as well.  I do not want this to happen.  I do not want to be Tarzan and cannot think of anything drearier or more stupid and barbarous than racism. The last thing I want to be is the King of the Jungle, any jungle, and that includes Boston as much as it does Bujumbura.

Somewhere along the way there was an understanding reached between Tarzan and his followers.  Either it was a collaboration (don’t bother me and I won’t bother you) or it was true conquering that was in some ways permanent.  There must have been this understanding or there would not be so many Tarzans today.  I refuse to collaborate or conquer and further refuse to sit by while the doubletalk continues.  Someone must convince the African governments that fascism is not the special property of the Italians and Germans, and ask why independent African rule has made it infinitely easier for Tarzan, complete with fasces, to exist undisturbed and unchallenged.

Hello 2010!

It is hard to believe that another year has gone by.  It is always hard to look back and think what you were doing at this time last year.  I can only feel hopeful about this coming year, as the last one began as great as this one.  A sign of good things to come?  I believe so.

Top 3 things to mention in 2010 (so far):

  1. New House
  2. Egypt
  3. Meeting with the organization (Association for Distressed Migrants and Deportees) I will be volunteering with

New House

The outside of our new house!

Alison and I moved into our new house this past weekend, and it is AMAZING!!  Two words—washing machine—or rather, it is rumored.   Our landlord turned out to be great.  He put in a beautiful new kitchen, which will have (he says) a washing machine.  I hit the floor when he told us.  Here is how the conversation went:

Mr. Sosoa (landlord):  The kitchen cabinets will go against the one wall then the sink and washing machine will be next to each other—

Me:  Wait…WASHING MACHINE?!?

Mr. Sosoa: Yes

Me: Like that you wash clothes in?!?

Mr. Sosoa: Yes

Me: REALLY?!?

Mr. Sosoa: Oh, you don’t need it?

Me and Alison:  YES!!

To further highlight how awesome he is, Mr. Sosoa is also providing us with the refrigerator, living room furniture, and patio furniture — on top of already repainting (and when he didn’t like the color, re-did it) and providing us with great closets, beds, retiling, beautifully carved doors…oh the list could go on about how great Mr. Sosoa is!  Alison and I are already getting sad about leaving.  All I have right now is a picture of the outside, but once everything is finished and we get back from Egypt I will post the finished renovations.

Egypt

Place to Visit Before I Die- Check!

I am 8 days and counting from Egypt!  I am going with Alison and Halley (both of whom I met in Ghana my first time) and then our friend John is meeting up with us for our first few days in Cairo.  In true nature of Alison, Halley, and me, we haven’t made any real travel plans—only a few requirements.  I would like to sleep in a desert and Halley wants to see a beach.  Other than those two things, I think we are all pretty open to just wandering around and seeing what happens.  Once we all meet in Cairo a more concrete plan will develop, I am sure.  We have two weeks to explore a country that is three times the size of New Mexico (thanks CIA World Factbook), which definitely is not enough time to see it all.  I cannot wait to get on the plane and get out of Ghana for a little a while; my feet are itching for some travel.  I am also excited to be able to cross a something off my “Places to See Before I Die” list.

Pictures will of course follow after this trip!

Meeting with Association of Distressed Migrants and Deportees (ADMD)

Association for Distressed Migrants and Deportees

Finally, one of the things I am most excited about is working with ADMD.  Okay, so not working actually but volunteering—a label I still have not come to terms with.  I feel as a person out of school, with a degree, I should be looking for paying jobs.  But, I am really excited about this one!  I will have the chance to really work within the communities at a very grassroots level.  I will devote an entire post to the organization later in the week, but things are looking good so far.

Also, check out Holiday Photos I just posted on Facebook!

Ch-ch-changes

Que the David Bowie song…

With the New Year approaching there are many new things happening for me.  After much thought and consideration, I have decided to take a new step…or rather, I feel like a giant leap.  I have made the decision to leave my job here in Ho and go to Accra.  There are many reasons for this, but mainly, it is because I am constantly searching to do something that I feel really matters.  Something I have come to realize about myself it’s my work that gives me a lot of my meaning and purpose.  If I am not doing something that I truly believe in, it would be impossible for me to be happy.

So what is this new meaning and purpose I have found?  Well, to start, a few months ago I heard about a land rights issue going on in Accra in a slum named Sodom and Gomorrah.  I can remember last time I was here, there was a shanty town not far from the University that I always passed on my way to work.   The houses were shacks and crowded together.  Most probably did not have running water and electricity, which is not a good situation for people to be living.  However, one day near the end of my time here I noticed that it was gone.  There was nothing left.  People’s homes were completely flattened—demolished.  I don’t know what happened to those people, whether the government resettled them, gave them money, or assistance in finding new housing.  I have not forgotten them.

This brings me to Sodom and Gomorrah and back to the Ga Meshie area where I worked last time I was here.  Sodom and Gomorrah is a slum where reportedly the government pushed the homeless, disabled, and other misanthropes.  It is unsanitary and unsafe for the people living there.  Crime is high and the government wants it cleaned up.  With all these bad things said, it is still people’s homes and people need and have rights!  The government has been working on getting them out for years, but it is now that it has come to a critical point.

There are so many things that are unknown to me right now.  I am not sure what the best route is at this point, but I do know that I want to help advocate for this community.  I am not exactly sure in what aspect my work will be at this point either.  I do know that I will be volunteering with an organization working with the community.  Hopefully, working together, we can determine what it is the community members want, and then move forward in addressing those needs.  So for now, all I know is that I have found something I am passionate about and the rest will go from there.

My friend Alison and I have found a really cute two bedroom house that we are renting until June!  I am so excited to be back in a more urban environment, something I didn’t realize how much I would miss.  The move in date is January 1, and I’ll post pictures after that.  Also on the horizon is a trip to Egypt with Alison and Halley!  We lived together in Ghana the first time we were all here and will be so good to be traveling together again.  There is so much to look forward to this next year!  Sorry for the purely “update” post, I’m sure I will have many more entertaining stories to share with you as I move and vacation in Egypt…I’ll keep you posted.

Its the Most Wonderful Time of the Year!

Preparing for the holidays in Ghana is not the easiest task. How can you think about that warm feeling you are supposed to feel inside, being nicer and hanging out with family, when instead when the most common feeling caused by the uncomfortable heat? All of this makes Christmas music and thoughts of cold nights, warm cookies, and spiced apple cider seem ridiculous. I was pretty down about the whole season. This is the time you are supposed to be with family and wear scarves!!

I was ready to Scrooge it up this holiday season. Sit in my house and not even mention things like Turkey, Christmas songs, and trees. However, life is short, and I have to enjoy it! So in that spirit, this past weekend I had the brilliant idea of making holiday cards while listening to Christmas music. Yes, I’ll have to admit I was a little sad sitting in my room with no electricity, but it still helped me get into the holiday spirit and it was by candle light…kinda Christmas-ey right?

Also helping me get in the holiday mood is Post Thanksgiving Thanksgiving that I am hosting on Saturday. Again, I was planning on ignoring Thursday (my favorite holiday) but what is the fun in that?! Instead, I am having some friends over at the VEG house and making enough food to feed an army. I will honestly try and remember to take pictures to post this time.

As this is my Thanksgiving post, I just have to say how thankful I am for my friends and family. Seriously, I love you and appreciate all the support and love you have been giving me (both abroad and here in Ghana). I’m doing what I have been wanting to do for a long time and wouldn’t be able to do it alone.

Hope everyone is getting in that Holiday Spirit!!!! Happy Thanksgiving!!!

Oh yeah! And I don’t like usually talking about work on my blog…but you have to visit our site and check out our Lady Volta Catalog with all our new jewelry in it! We can ship anywhere, just give the mail enough time. The jewelry was designed by various volunteers…the last one being a jewelry designer from the UK who does really cool recycled jewelry line called Swank (look her up online). The money helps support the project and gives employment to some fabulous young women! What more could you need in a Christmas gift?

When the going gets tough…

the tough get going?

That phrase can have different meanings…not sure which one I would pick now.  The past month has been a rough one.  I was sick on and off for two weeks and couldn’t shake whatever it was, I recently made my neighbors angry again (water situation and not really important to get into), things are lagging at work, and the surviving in a different culture is exhausting me.  I feel like that peasant in Monty Python’s Holy Grail where people make assumptions and leave me yelling “Help! Help! I’m being repressed!”

You would think I should be the king (being the colonizing yevu I am), but sometimes I feel that people keep this ridiculous hierarchy in place.  And for what reason?!?  The longer I am here the more I know I just don’t get somethings…

On the upside, I have done some fun things lately.  A few weekends ago I traveled to Kpalime, Togo with a friend.  It is in the heart of coffee country and we had the BEST food.  Just imagine steak covered with a Camembert sauce with chips (fries) and a chef salad with REAL marbled sliced ham and pieces of Gruyere!  Yes, you might not understand the real treat of it all as you get delicious steaks and cheese all you want, but for me it was AMAZING!

We then traveled up a winding mountain road to a small village not far from the Ghana border on motos (and sadly did not miss a rooster in the road…twice).  The village was great, and we were able to just walk the roads and enjoy the evening.  In the morning…FRESHLY BREWED COFFEE!!  Here in Ghana, most people only drink instant Nescafe (except for myself because I have wonderful friends who shipped me the real deal) so getting real coffee at a normal price was fantastic!

I’m not sure why Togo has much better culinary options, or maybe more of a multi culturally influenced diet than Ghana.  My friend and I were talking about colonization and his opinion was that the French did more of a disservice in terms of stripping colonies of their culture than the British did.  He is British, though, so take it with a grain of salt ;) .  However, maybe his point can be seen in the food that is served in Togo and the amount of cigarettes they smoke–opposed to Ghanaians who see smoking a terrible sin and eat a less than exciting diet of starch, tomatoes and oil.  So, while yes, maybe the French did try to force integration and conformity in its colonies, potentially ridding the Togolese of some of their rich culture…they sure do have some damn good cheeses.

And, finally, a couple of pictures from outside my office that reminds me why I like being here…

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Reason #3 I should have joined the peace corps…

They pay for rehab.

Well, at least according to my neighbors that is what I need.  Don’t worry mom, I don’t really have a problem…

Yesterday, Julie (who has been living in my extra room for a while now) were sat down by my boss to pass on some complaints from my neighbors.

Accusation # 1: I leave garbage outside my door and the animals come and tear it apart in the middle of the night.

Rebuttal:  I had three cockroaches in one week!  PLUS, found some mouse poop around.  I didn’t want to attract animals INSIDE my house.  They also cleaned up all the garbage before I even got up, and then didn’t even tell me it happened!  So who is really to blame here?!  Ok, ok, I take responsibility…lesson learned…no more garbage outside my door.

Accusation #2: I have too many visitors that are loud.

Rebuttal:  Thank God I finally have friends!!!!  And they generally only come during the weekend.  I guess I would complain too if someone kept me up on a Saturday night when I have to get to church at 4AM!  Also, excuse me, but up until last week my neighbors had kids that were yelling “Hallelujah”, “Praise Jesus!”, in addition to crying in our courtyard at 5AM.  Pretty sure that woke me up every morning…

Accusation #3: Julie and I drink too much…this can also probably be attributed to Accusation #2.

Rebuttal: See Accusations 1 and 2.  Wouldn’t you drink if this is what you had to put up with?!?  Only kidding…They probably judge the amount of drinking by the number of wine boxes (yes, parents I can no longer ridicule you boxed wine drinking) we throw out.

So now, all joking aside, I really do feel bad that I give my neighbors something to complain about (I’ve never done well with being scolded).  I’m even more embarrassed by the fact they went to my bosses instead of telling me some rather simple things.  It makes me look bad and makes me sad that they don’t feel comfortable coming to me.  I think this just highlights how much I hate feeling like an outsider.  I know more effort can be made on both sides, and I hope that it can get somehow better.  However, I do think these are some cultural issues.  I am a “loud” American who likes to have fun!  My definition of fun is a little different from theirs and includes boxes of Don Garica…I believe this weekend I will try to prove I am not a raging alcoholic by getting up to sweep at 5AM, then pound some fufu, and do my laundry.  Okay, now I am joking, but I will try to make more of an effort.

I am also including some pictures from Alison’s visit this past weekend and pictures of me working to prove that I can function ;)

Giving a talk about washing your hands with soap

Giving a talk about washing your hands with soap

Me and Alison in Ho

Me and Alison in Ho

Global Handwashing Day

Global Handwashing Day